Ahhhh Training Camp Blog!!
(in Georgia font, fittingly)
I could talk about sleeping in the fetal position in a school bus
(eh that's been done before)
the weather
(4 seasons in a day, whatevs)
The RED GEORGIA DIRT that they really weren't kidding about
(butt/knee stains a-plenty)
The awkwardness of eating with my hands
(aka my God-given sporks)
I could muse about the little crunchy dead fish looking up at me from the breakfast soup
(I ate Nemo?)
Rain hiking with my pack on
(totes beast mode)
How frustratingly huge my sleeping bag is
(like bigger than a basketball packed down, what the heck?!!)
Oh and my headlamp is a toy compared the others
(but it does have a rave setting)
And I never thought we'd have a dance party to Beyonce at a christian camp
(alas, Jesus does love Beyonce)
I could go on and on about the outer things
the subjects that make people laugh
the comfortable topics.
But can I go deeper?
Can I tell you what I really learned?
I want to get uncomfortable
It's edifying
I knew not much at all about the power of the Holy Spirit
I almost felt cheated for not understanding the immensity that it is. We read about being empowered by the Spirit over and over and yet I had no idea (I bet most people REALLY don't get it either). I heard of healing… today. And of prophecying, and speaking in tongues, and all the uncomfortable subjects churches shy away from because well… it's not cozy. It was pretty freaky (but awesome freaky) to know and SEE that God moves TODAY.
Everything was strictly Biblical.
I wanna know where I've been?! Why have I never seen this before?!
I want more, please!
I had no idea about generational curses (look'em up, kids, it's in the Book)
I learned that there were some root causes to all the pain and hurt I've been through.
It was interesting to look at the patterns in my family and see the same thing happening from generation to generation. Widows, adultery, divorce, death of marriages in general. All this really makes me stop and think.
The power of words
What comes out of MY MOUTH makes a huge difference.
God spoke and things were created. What are we creating today with our words?
Am I speaking life into people? Am I encouraging and being positive? Listen closely when you're "venting" and see what comes out. Be careful not to curse yourself or others… good lessons I've learned.
I need to be in the habit of asking the Lord to speak to me!
We believe He's listening, and we forget that He's speaking.
I want to be tuned in to what He has to say to me. Maybe it'll come like a gut feeling, maybe it'll be an audible voice, a picture, a word, a vision. I just want to keep asking the Father to reveal His thoughts to me π these newer concepts really blew my mind.
I learned to let go
We had to picture 2 chairs in a room, and I was sitting in one, and that person my soul is tied to is sitting on the other chair. There's a bungee cord connecting our hearts. The speaker asked us to picture Jesus entering in with some epic scissors in hand, and snapping that cord. Then having the other person walk out of the room and just remaining with Christ in His presence.
I saw something different. I saw no bungee cord. Jesus simply entered the room (sans cutting tools) and stepped in between the chairs. He stood in front and covered that person. I could no longer see him, only Christ. I heard the chair being pushed back, and knew that he had left the room. All that was left was Christ standing right in front of me, staring me down.
"Am I enough?" He asked.
"Am I enough?" I asked back.
He smiled, "yes you are, of course you are" and that was it.
Letting go 101, folks.
I learned that I need to be more observant
I need to use my loud mouth to advocate for the quiet ones.
I need to build others up. Instill confidence, make voices heard, and learn to listen in a whole new level.
I learned that confrontation is natural, timely, and brings honor.
Have I mentioned how amazing the people are?
How Spirit-filled, loving, and inspiring these leaders were?
And how fired up and passionate the chosen ones, the racers, were about giving their whole lives for the sake of Christ?
They truly consider everything a loss compared to gaining Christ.
Little did I know the people I hugged on the whole week would be family. My family.
I really love my family
Camping was great. Training was deep.
I learned that God is powerful beyond measure, and then some.
There is so much more about Him that I want to explore.
I'm giddy at the opportunity to continue growing like this.
Is it GO time yet?
Is it GO time yet?
Is it GO time yet?
Helena,you truly do encourage me every time I read your blog. It makes me want Him even more. I’m praying for you my friend
Dude you’re awesome andI’m so thankful to have you on the squad. You are an advocate for those that need to be heard. Fight for that! Love you and praying for you.
Thank you girls!!
Tawny, you encourage me so much π thank you for keeping up with my blog and praying for me! You’re always in my prayers along with your precious family. Love you!
Lindsay,
I’m beyond glad you’re a leader!! You are loving and encouraging, and I admire you so much! Love you and praying for you as you prepare for launch!
The wonderful thing about living with Christ is everyday is a new day of growing and learning. It is awesome and I’m so proud of you and your willingness to serve. I’ll be praying with and for you continually. May God bless and keep you always in His care.
Love you.
Amen, get it girl! Those truths will carry you so far, not just on the World Race but in LIFE! You have a spark, you carry a fire within you, and when you speak people listen. Use that for God’s glory, don’t be ashamed of it, DO IT! π
Thank you for keeping up with me and praying for me, Rhayma!! You are such a blessing to me π Like I said in the email, I hope to visit you in November! Love you!
Shawndell, THANK YOU!! π I’m so excited to go and see how the Lord will be glorified in all those countries, and even now while I’m home. I am beyond grateful for your encouragement π God bless you
I smile when I think how much you’ll change during this trip. You are such a wonderful person right now, as you are. But I believe these experiences will strengthen you and change you more than either of us could ever imagine. I’ve heard a song on the way home from work every day this week, “Rise” by Shawn McDonald. I’m reminded of it now as I’m writing this and the chorus “He who is in me is greater than I will ever be and I will rise”. Helena, I believe you will rise to something so amazing.
Val! I love that song π I definitely relate! I’m excited to see how God will fit me for His Kingdom. I want Christ to rise in me -Helena
Awesome, awesome, awesome ! Psalms 81:10 I AM the Lord your God, which brought you out of the land of Egypt (sin): Open your mouth wide and I will fill it !
I’m reminded of a baby bird in the nest…it waits in anticipation of it’s mouth being filled. The minute they see their mom in flight to the nest their little heads reach up… necks stretched as far as they can get them for mom to fill them with alllll she has!
Look up, stretch to receive all you can that the Lord has to offer…! You will never ever be the same! He will do things in and through you that YOU will even be blown away with !
God bless you and you are in for such an awesome experience !
Jan